Getting touched in bad places

CRAP Won't be able to do much stuff for awhile.  First thing Monday morning I'll be under the knife.  One-eye monster surgery.  No exercise or lifting for more than a week. I have to tell you that I am already nervous as hell, because I don't let anybody touch it ever; it's a phobia.  MoSup has been putting pre-op drops (of three meds)  into my eye, 4 td, for three days now.  She needs a crowbar to keep my eye open, so how the hell am I going to react when having to stare at a light on the ceiling while they cut the lens out of my eye?  The answer is they clamp it open.  That's like being in a state of paralysis while the medical examiner saws open your skull.   Worst thing I've ever had to do, but I can't even see the target at 25 yards anymore.  My left eye isn't as bad, but gets worse by the month, so that one gets done next month.  If you've been through cataract surgery, you know that you basically have 2 choices of replacement lenses.  The $1000 lens comes in either far-sighted or near-sighted.  The $3000 lens supposedly focuses much like natural vision, so you don't need glasses at all.  Insurance pays for option A, the other comes out of my pocket,  so I've chosen to be near-sighted since most of my time is spent reading or the computer.  I'll wear glasses for driving.  Pray for me. That I don't cry like a baby tomorrow,  and have to be restrained.